a cheap little Euro-Style (almost Hostel like) located at 51st and 2nd ave in NYC. One night there made me think that every space right now feels small and confining, especially here in Nashville, it not so much the physical space as it is the mental space that this place occupies. It's fucking cold here right now, a cold I'm not used to at all and hope never to get used to X-Mas is West Hollywood is a god-send, a perfect escape from the chill and the relative boredom I feel in Nashville, not to mention it will be less confining and more expansive....fuck I might even get some real work done while i'm there. I am actually looking forward to a fun / cool / and creative rest of the month and into the new year, shit! I'll have to wear the eye-patch in California...I guess its fitting somehow...
First a bit of history, two summers ago whilst on a walk early one Sunday evening I was jumped and beaten by a group young men, they hit the right side of my face with some sort of board which blinded my right eye (temporarily) for the next few months. During the first month my eye was subjected to weekly tests in order to see if the vision would return, I was forced to wear an eye patch completely isolating my eyes from one another. My right eye (much like my hand) is my dominant eye, losing it meant no photography for a while until the eye was at least partially healing (short vision came back before the long vision), negotiating driving and walking while seeing half of what I was used to. Had it no been so traumatizing at the time it would have been an interesting experiment in seeing / perception / balance / and mental and physical "dominance”.
So that’s why I decided to repeat the blindness for a few short days and just make some observations with the clarity and the curiosity I wish I would have had back when the original event had occurred. This year I’ve decided to only to see ½ of Christmas. I’ll be wearing the very same patch over my right eye from Dec 22nd – Dec 25th. Observations will start on the eve of the 22nd. It’s also perhaps in some way a mental cleansing through choosing to “blind” that eye for a time rather than having it violently forced upon me.
While I was driving home this eve I caught myself staring at the roof of this huge building off in the distance. The way the sun was setting and reflecting off the roof made it a perfect gray blue, it was as if there was this huge body of water in front of me. It reminded me of the view of the San Francisco Bay from Treasure Island, looking east towards Berkeley. It also reminded of a conversation I had with a lovely friend while walking the Embarcadaro one evening not so long ago. We talked of how being near the water felt so expansive and yet so humbling, how it made you feel so very tiny and yet at the same time completely open and limitless. There is something very special about the water and being near it.
I'm just sitting and thinking how interesting it is how things live off of as well as inside of other things. It’s completely organic and natural and yet both beneficial and caustic. Physically, mentally, and emotionally we all experience this reality though perhaps we don’t really give it much thought or concern until some sort of “upheaval” or situation of turmoil or threat takes place. Some require our attention while others we can remain oblivious to or try to distract ourselves from. I guess it’s either the cure or the distraction that keeps us going and moving forward. I wonder if trees can distract themselves.
while this was a challenging and entertaining project the results were less than spectacular or profound. I think perhaps the true test would come in both drinking and eating things that are blue in color only to get a true physical result. Perhaps in the coming months I will try this variation for a couple weeks and compare results. Until then onward to the next task which I hav yet to determine. A few things I'm thinking about and will post as they begin.